It’s been a while

I haven’t posted to my personal blog recently. My excuses are that I’m too busy, I’m too tired, or sometimes I just forget. 

Excuses. Plain and simple. Worthless, good for nothing excuses. 

And they need to stop. 

I have allowed myself to be lulled into a sense of complacency, especially at work. I currently work full time for one of the top companies in the U.S. 

I also work part time for the #2 best company to work for in the U.S. 

I have been working in both places for over a decade, and I have nothing to show for it (well, I still have a roof over my head, and I can feed my kids). 

My hopes and dreams of climbing the corporate ladder were simply an illusion. 

I work with many talented, kind, and intelligent people. 

And I’ve seen many people promoted into positions for which they had no aptitude. It seems that much of corporate America confuses management with leadership. 

I am grateful to both companies for keeping me around, and for fueling the myth that I could become better, that there are limitless opportunities waiting for me to grab. 

Maybe it’s me. Maybe corporate life is not my cup of tea. The red tape, the politics, the irrational decisions made only to enrich shareholders. 

None of which is wrong. In my heart I believe it’s me who is wrong. I’m a fish out of water. I bristle at the red tape, the slow decisions, the promotions of people who continually screw things up. 

It’s taken too long, but I feel that the time has come to put up or shut up. 

I believe I have what it takes to build something of my own. I believe I have the thick skin to weather the storms and to deal with the adversity. 

Worst of all, I feel that I will deeply, deeply regret not taking a chance to prove myself, and regret is the worst thing of all. 

I prepare for bed tonight feeling the discomfort of change, the pit in my stomach as I prepare to leave my comfort zone. I see so many “successful people” who quite frankly don’t appear to be any smarter than I. 

It’s time to prove my theory. Time to stand up and be a man and to claim what’s mine. 

It’s time to stop living a life of fear and regret, and start living a life that is bold and full of abundance.